"maybe you wouldnt notice if you would stop harassing me"

well im here in computers this sub is a tottal B!tch!!!! hahahahaha JACOB just told her off!! well sorta...lol so yea well julian had wrote me a poem its so sweet its on his journal so yea :) i like it i love him :) it sorta almost made me cry lol yea well this class is stupid... OH and in mr halls class we made him go bipolor on us lol so yea well thats it for today laters!!

bored in control

*sighs* well the school servers are down i cant go into GoLive :( *sighs* well today was fun, i guess, i dunno latly it feels like nobody reallt wants me here, *sighs* i know its just me being dumb, but hey i cant help it, so yea i got to go laters

the voices go unheard

*sighs* well here i am here and bored, today seems out of place, i miss my friends, well my grandparents are supose to be coming this weekend, so i have to hide all my pictures and posters all my good stuff :P hahaha so yea well the drama club was cancell AGAIN!!! man i need them to be on task!!! eh... today is so BLAH!! nothing to do or say, i lost all senses of direction, so yea today if so lame, well today Lama had cover his mouth with duck tape, man my head is so blank i cant even focus, it feels like depression, well in a way, well im bored and here are some poems i wrote, later


Leave

Fallen hope of dreams
come to reality
wishing that i was gone
far away from this place
only wanting to be home
asleep or dead
never waking up agian
never feeling this pain ever again






Now That Your Gone

Years gone by
and yet we still havent talked
i often think about you
time and time again i wonder
wonder how are you doing
wondering if your the same person
that i once knew
or did you change in some way
that i wont be able to regonize you
my life is better this way
w/o you here, im much more happier
in a way i guess its sad
cause now that your gone lifes better
and when you were here life was misarable




.x.x.FLAWLESS.x.x.

Flawless lies
Flawless tears
Waiting for the truth to come out
waiting for you to die
Waiting for the world to destruct
Facing todays problems
in a flawless world
in your flawless pain
whatching you die




Whatching You Go

Whatching the years go by
waiting for this pain to end
wondering what will happen to you and me
lost in a fight
hoping this will end
killing myself
in your worlds of pain
leaving my past as i whatch you go
leaving me here to just FADE AWAY

its still tuesday!

so yea here i am, just got back from Job Shadowing at KGET it was fun man! i walked around the set talk to some of the news ancors (i cant spell for dung!! :P haha) well Julian is working on his GoLive, im alomost done, im on the last lesson, FUN!! :) yea im sorta hyper! :) :) :) hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe so yea well Julian just hit his head on the damn pole and hes reading this WHEN HES SUPOSED TO BE DOING HIS WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha im such a mean girlfriend hehehe well my wrist still hurts, YAY!!! I GET AN HOUR EARLY OUT TODAY!!!! OMG OMG OMG!! IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!! LAURA GOT ME A JONES SODA TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *yay* i feel so speacal!!! :) *sighs* so yea im still tired, hahahaha Cody went to the print shop and he had SO MUCH _*^F_U^N_* hahahaha im just glad im not there anymore :) hehehe well it was fun, but all they teach you is how to work the printer, scanners, and coppiers which i ALREADY know, mostly becuase of the MMA so yea well thats all for now laters
btw: HELLO :)
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BYE!!!!

tuesday-im still tired!!

well here i am at school, i have job shadowing in a few minutes we get out early today and yea, so im in mrs. mccreedys class waiting for 8:58 to come so yea well theres the bell later!!

lost in the shatering glass of hopes and dreams

so yea here i am new to this journal place, this pain just wont go away!!! well my wrist, lol so yea lunch was fun :) well im a Junior at my school, w/ mental problems :P im in a multie-media acdemy and i have two classes of computers same teacher, im ahead of my class so im quick writting in here, *yawn* im sorta sleepy, i love my b/f Julian, this school im at is cool, better than any other school i've been to atleast, but i do miss my friends from LA yup, well i have a odd taste in my mouth, mostly b/c i had drank some soda and im not used to drinking soda anymore :-\ hmm so yea im sorta stressing out, mostly becuase i have a lot on my plate, i have 7 classes, job shadowing (just for this month) drama club meetings, environmental club, and the high achievers acdemy also so yea well i better go and finish my GoLive, *sighs* im sleepy, well my friends out here are cool, they are the ppl who make me me, and my friends from LA are the ppl who made me more stronger and more me also :) hahaha ok i have no idea if any of that made sense so yea later!!